It’s 1:15 in the morning, and I’m a little drained of energy to go on about how blessed I am to be surrounded by such incredible and loving people. But I really am so lucky to have the community and group of peers that I have. To anyone who has ever been a part of my life, please just realize that I am infinitely grateful for you. Thank you so much.
Tonight I performed with the Element band for the first time!
It was such an awesome experience. It’s really awesome that I’ve been given the opportunity to be able to use the talents and gifts God has given me to glorify Him. This mixed with some also selfish reasons made the performance really awesome. I was complimented many times for playing well (even though I wasn’t super audible, but I’ll definitely take it), and it was just a blast to do. The others in the band are great and kind people and I’m looking forward to getting to know each of them better as I progress. It was also one of my great friend’s, Skyler Hyde, first night performing with the band, so it was cool to kind of go into it with him. We shared the nervousness and anxiety pre-performance and then shared the excitement and sense of pride afterwards. It was nice.
Anyway, there’s my tidbit of tonight. It’s been nice. I also got to see Anna (which I didn’t think I’d get to do for a while. I thought she was grounded for a long time, but I guess not. Yay!) Today/tonight has been pleasant. School being over and summer approaching, although the same thing, are two great feelings.
Glory to God.
Tomorrow is the first night that I will play guitar at Element!
I’m extremely nervous, considering a ton of my friends go and will hear me play. Plus, it’s a rather high standard to meet, so I’m just kind of scared to mess up. I’m practicing a ton, though! I feel rather well.
However, prayers would most definitely be appreciated. Thank you!
You can call it conceit if you please, but it’s just something I’ve recognized that makes me somewhat happier about myself; as superficial as that may be.
I feel as though over the last year or so, I’ve become much more attractive than I have been for basically my entire life. It’s my biggest insecurity (by far), and it has always—and probably will always be—something that gets to me on a daily basis. It traces back quite a long time, but that’s another conversation.
Anyway, when looking back at pictures of me and then looking at pictures of me now, I feel like my general appearance has greatly increased, and it makes me feel somewhat better about myself. I’ve grown a lot in the last two years—outside and inside.
Sorry to fill your dash with pride.
Here is a list of the past ten songs it’s played:
That is all.
Today is a good day.
If you use complimentary colors for the background and text colors on a sideshow… just… agh. Just don’t do it.
Shoutout to all of my friends. For real. To anyone who has stuck with me for the past ten years, or the past ten months, or the past ten weeks, or the past ten days, thank you. You all are incredible and I don’t thank you enough.
Despite me having a rather poopy night last night,
it makes me really happy to see that everyone had such a great time at prom last night. I’m glad each of you enjoyed yourselves. I like seeing my friends happy.
Plus, I had a really nice day today.
I’m just going to sleep so I can see my church family and my friends tomorrow. Tonight sucks.
You win today, sadness.
My grades have been stressing me out for the past month or so.
Warning: It might seem like I’m trying to sound self-righteous or something, but I’m not. It’s just a genuine concern of mine that happens to coincidentally be something that others seem to think shouldn’t worry me.
I have never gotten below an A on a nine weeks report card since I’ve been in school. From 1st grade to now. Grades have always been important to me, and I’ve always been a hardworking student who does my best.
This last nine weeks of the school year, two of my grades have dropped to Bs, and it’s just really been kind of a downer on me. Even worse, my level of apathy has developed an inverse relationship with my grades, and at one point I just kind of accepted that I was going to let myself down. Again, it probably seems really petty, but it’s just been getting to me a little. It’s not that it would be an enormous deal if I got a B; it’s just kind of one of those things. My first B in 10 years of school. Eh.
Anyway, those two grades are slowly rising now due to an increased effort in my work, and it’s recently just made me kind of happy about myself. I’ve been stressed for a while in school, and seeing everything sort of come together towards the end of the year is just a nice feeling. One of my grades jumped over the past week from an 85 to a 97, and the other B is a 90 at the moment. However, a test on Tuesday that I’m pretty confident about should change that.
Sorry to take up your dash. This is just something that made me smile. I feel like I don’t post enough text posts or personal things, so I kind of want to start doing this more often.
I have a girlfriend.
That’s about all I can say at the moment.
